Dear God (Nini)

Dear God,
FAT
I don’t know when FAT started to mean the same thing as ugly. I don’t know when it started to mean disgusting. I don’t know.
Am I really that horrible in people’s eyes? but You say I am beautiful. You love every part of me even the whiskers on my face and the fat lumps on my back. You say my body is your creation. I am a piece of Your art.
So why am I so FAT?
I think I’m beautiful too. I just don’t understand why your other creations don’t think the way You do.

Yours forever,
Nini.

Nini, email me. Somto@somtoudeke.com, somtoudeke@gmail.com. I would love to speak to you❤️

Dear God (Nihinola)

Dear God,

Well Daddy, is it okay if I call you that? I just want to say thank you. Anytime i say thank you, tears well up in my eyes! Why? Simply because You keep doing marvellous things in my life. I look back and wonder why am I soo soo blessed? Definitely not by my power or might, But by your Grace Daddy , I’m thankful

Woooow! Thank you for 2015, yet another Year. Thank you for emotions. The tingling sensation I feel when I try to imagine what you’ve planned for me. Do i even have the brain capacity to imagine it?

Wonderful Daddy, I can only pray your will be done on Heaven and on earth. I commit myself unto thee. Help Help Help me to stand firm in Christ. Please please please Do not leave or forsake me. Thank you again Daddy Lord.

Your daughter,
Nihinola

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The Apology You Will Never Get

by Doyin Adeyemi

Mr Nkama Okafor: Now it is time for the second poetry recital by one of our top students – Kelechi Achebe. She will be reciting a free verse poem that is titled “The apology you will never get.”

*As Kelechi makes her way to the front of the hall, several students turn to look at each other and whisper within themselves. They are surprised because Kelechi is known as a shy girl, one who seems to lack confidence to speak in front of a lot of people.*

Kelechi: *shaking nervously she begins to speak.*

Why are you pushing me down?
I’m trying to get up
Up up there, I’m trying to go higher

Why are you pushing me down?
I need to be up there
There’s this thing I need from up there

*someone in the crowd laughs. In the quiet room, it is easy to pinpoint the person out. Kelechi glances quickly at Adesua and continues to read*

Why are you pushing me down?
I have been searching and now I have found
I know I need to be up there

*she hesitates to keep going, but she hears a voice in her head tell her she can do it, so she increases her voice*

Down here I am apologizing
And it is continuous
The continuity is weighing me down
I can not continue to apologize
Why are you weighing me down?
I desperately need to be up there

*the room goes silent*

You want me to apologize one last time?

Okay. I apologize.

I’m sorry that I have become this person
This person that is dissatisfied with just anything
This person that is willing to say no to what she feels is wrong
This person that does not have to practice a smile in the mirror anymore
This person that loves herself
This person that loves what’s inside of her

I’m sorry,
I’m sorry I make you uncomfortable
I’m sorry you feel guilt around me
I’m sorry you feel shame

This girl knows what it’s like
To feel guilt and shame
And what it’s like to not
And she’ll pick to not feel it every single time ——
She has a choice

You’re not willing to let go and I am
I am moving upward
Why are you pushing me down?

Why are you pushing me down?
I have had a peek of this love that is up there
This love that erases guilt, that erases shame
This love that erases past mistakes
This love that brings out continuous growth and not continuous apology

I need it all But — it is not down here

This love is what separates down here from up there I need to be up there

This apologizing needs to go
So I will apologize no more
I am not who you want me to be
I am who I am – a product of THE I AM THAT I AM
And I am not sorry

I need this love

*she pauses, when she starts again – her tone is calm*

It’s a different story if I just want it
But you see
This love – the love of God – demands to be felt – I need it

This love molds and remakes
And in the process erases unnecessary baggage
So don’t weigh me down
Down here is dark and ugly
And it’s been comfortable because I have known nothing better
But now I know, and it’s never too late to know
So I know and I will go
I will keep going, I will keep climbing, I will keep feeling- this love- that’s all consuming. I will yield to its demand.

I will yield to it, oh yes I will,
And I am absolutely not sorry.
This is the apology you will never get.

*she leaves the hall without looking at anyone’s face. she is out now and she is smiling and she is laughing and she is crying at the same time. she is free.*

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Friendship. The God Kind of Friendship.

Friendship. The God Kind of Friendship.

Hello, beloved of CHRIST ❤️

I’m going to attempt to paint a picture in your head.

Do you have a dog? Or have you ever seen a dog chained to a post?
Whenever the dog wants to move, whenever it wants to run, whenever it wants to go forward, it will take step after step after step after step. But. It will get to a point where the chain holding the dog to the post will have reached its limits, and that chain will drag the dog back to where it started from. Can you picture that?

Well that’s how it is for us Christians. When you are connected to the wrong people and the wrong friends, like that dog, you will move and begin to feel like you have made some progress, and you will get to a certain point in your journey, only to be pulled back to square one.

Painful, isn’t it?

As a young and growing Christian, the kinds of friends you keep are important. The kinds of people you surround yourself with daily are important.

Friendship should be about purpose

In my last post, I wrote quite a bit on Luke 5:18-19. (If you missed it, read it here)
Today, we’re going to be talking about that same verse from a different angle.

18 Some men came carrying a paralyzed man on a sleeping mat. They tried to take him inside to Jesus,
19 but they couldn’t reach him because of the crowd. So they went up to the roof and took off some tiles. Then they lowered the sick man on his mat down into the crowd, right in front of Jesus.

WOW! Look at this! I love this scripture. Did you see what just happened?
The paralysed man has absolutely no way of reaching Jesus on his own. Not with the kind of crowd surrounded by Him.
But you see, HE WAS SURROUNDED BY LIKE- MINDED PEOPLE! His friends were men who had the same purpose he did!
That’s why when they saw they couldn’t reach Jesus the regular, conventional way, they didn’t give up. They said No o! By fire, by force, we must enter into Jesus’ presence. Our friend must receive his healing today. AND THEY DID JUST THAT.
They went through the roof to get to Jehovah.
Those are the kind of people I want to be surrounded with! Those are the kinds of friends I want to have!
Certain breakthroughs in your life could only come from God-ordained friends! The paralysed man would not have received his healing had it not been for his friends now, would he?
All I’m trying to say is, before entering a friendship, examine your purpose. Pleasing God is your purpose. Doing everything to the glory of God is your purpose. Find somebody with the same purpose.

Remember what the Bible says in 2 Corinthians 6:14-15

14 The Temple of the Living God
Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?
15 What accord has Christ with Belial? Or what portion does a believer share with an unbeliever?

Friendship is a covenant

I want you to realise how deep friendships are.
Let’s look at the two most celebrated friends in the Bible, David and Jonathan.

1 Samuel chapter 18, verse 1.

After David had finished talking with Saul, Jonathan became one in spirit with David, and he loved him as himself.

Did you see what just happened? Jonathan became ONE IN SPIRIT” with David. That’s how deep friendships are. I want you to realise that.
Friendship. Is. A. Convenant. With. The. Most. High. God.
Okay? When you accept a person as your friend, a covenant is being made. That friendship is being recognised in Heaven. It is up to you to ask yourself and ask God whether or not it was made to be.

Gods wants to lead every aspect of your life. Allow Him to lead the friendship part too.
Ask God to disconnect you from any friends that are not in line with His plan for your life.
Ask God to connect you with friends that are in line with His will for your life.

Stay blessed!

2015: Provoking God to Action

From the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven has suffered violence, and the violent take it by force. Matthew 11:12

This is one of those scriptures everyone knows. One of those that we all quote. All the time. Let’s talk about it a little.

When it talks about violence, violence here is not in the throwing of punches and blows, and wielding of knives and all the Kung fu moves. But you know that already, don’t you?

Violence here talks about this sort of desperation, this innate need, this zeal. The point where you need something as much as you need to breathe. The kind of need that pushes and motivates you to go the extra mile. That’s what we’re talking about today.
Going that extra mile.
Exerting pressure on the Kingdom of God.
Forcefully receiving of the Father.
Provoking Jehovah to action.

Luke chapter 5, verses 18, 19, 24 and 25. Let’s look at that.

18 Some men came carrying a paralyzed man on a sleeping mat. They tried to take him inside to Jesus,
19 but they couldn’t reach him because of the crowd. So they went up to the roof and took off some tiles. Then they lowered the sick man on his mat down into the crowd, right in front of Jesus.

24 So I will prove to you that the Son of Man has the authority on earth to forgive sins.” Then Jesus turned to the paralyzed man and said, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and go home!”
25 And immediately, as everyone watched, the man jumped up, picked up his mat, and went home praising God.

See how amazing that is? This paralysed man, he wanted healing. But then there were so many other people surrounding Jesus, the paralysed man couldn’t reach Him.
Guess what? HE DID NOT STOP THERE!
He was desperate. He wanted to be made whole. He wanted His healing! And so what did he do? HE PERFORMED A VIOLENT ACT! Whutttt?! He was lowered from the ceiling of the temple. Ahann! Talk about violence!
But you know what? His action provoked JESUS into action. Jesus did not plan to heal Him, I mean the paralysed man couldn’t even get into the temple. But Jesus performed an UNPRECEDENTED MIRACLE. He was healed! He was made whole!

Now that’s what I’m talking about!
2015, Provoke God to action. Provoke God to DO MORE. You cannot be content with the level you’re in now, reach further! Go higher! Enter deeper!
Decide that 2015, you will do something to catch the attention of Jehovah.
He has great plans for you in 2015, but tell Him you want something GREATER. Call it “spiritual Ojukokoro” if you want.

Maybe you’ve been praying to God for 10 minutes, change it to 1 hour. And if you’ve been doing 1 hour, do 3 hours in 2015. Spend more time with Him, tarry in His presence.
Fast more. Read your Bible more. CATCH THE ATTENTION OF JEHOVAH! Exert violence on the Kingdom of God.

Ask the Holy Spirit to lead you, and to direct you in this.

Happy New Year to all the amazing people God has led to this blog, I love you! God bless you! Let me hear from you!

I have tagged this year “My Year of Greater Works” My testimony will come out of this. I know.

For Further Reading on Provoking God to Action, Please study:
1. Mark 5: 25-34
2. John 2: 1-11.

Stay Blessed! ✨

Dear God (Bethany)

Dear God,
I’m writing another letter , haha. I’m writing to tell you how grateful I am for this past year . Lord thank you for today , the last day in 2014 . In January , you appointed Angel Grace , Angel Love and Angel Blessing to me . Grace was everywhere with me . Love – Well Love was a bit scarce but I’m grateful for her . And Blessing – Blessing kept surprising me everywhere I went . I’m thanking you in advance for the new set of Angels you’re appointing to me in 2015.
This year , Grandpa relocated to Heaven . Please tell him how much I miss him . I had my Sixteenth this year . I got into the University . My hearing was perfected . I want to go on but I cannot .
Also , this past summer , Angel Grace led me to meet the most wonderful set of young Christians .(The Lighters) . She told me you had it all planned and asked her to suprise me . My new family . Father I cannot write everything down , but believe me when I say – I am Thankful .
Oh and lest I forget , thank you for our Charity . Everyone that came & those that didn’t . Everyone that gave & those that didn’t, Bless them Dad.

Your daughter,
Bethany.

2014: My Thanksgiving and Testimony

Will my 2014 be complete if I don’t talk about Your goodness, Lord?
If I don’t share my testimony, Daddy? If I don’t tell the world how good, how amazing, how wonderful, how marvelous You’ve been to me?
I don’t know, I’m not sure it will.
Here I am Lord, here I am to celebrate You. To let You know that you truly are God.

2014 HAS BEEN MY TURNING POINT.

I’m not sure where to start from. This year, Lord, You taught me that I truly am NOTHING without You.
You taught me to depend on You, and you brought me deeper in You.
You taught me to not care about about the opinion of other people. You taught me to ignore the side talks. You taught me to keep my focus on You alone. You let me know that I live to please You, and You alone.

Oh My Amazing Creator. This year, You’ve taken me through a period of preparation. Painstakingly taught me lesson after lesson, on how to live in a way that is pleasing in Your sight. You molded me, and You’re still molding me into the vessel You want me to be.

There were times I failed You. Times I didn’t meet up to Your expectations. Times I missed the mark. But You were always there. With arms wide spread in love, waiting to take me back. What manner of man are You, My Saviour?

And then there were times where I felt like giving up. The devil never stopped trying to come in. Never stopped trying to find a loophole. Never stopped trying to attack.
Through it all, Daddy. Through it all, You’ve been faithful.

Ah, JEHOVAH! You have shown Yourself to me this year!
People talk and talk and talk about You. But how many people truly know You? How many people have truly experienced You, for who You are?

Jehovah Jireh. Jehovah Nissi. Jehovah Shammah. Adonai. JEHOVAH RAPHA. Jehovah Meschidesken. Jehovah Tsikednu. Redeemer. SAVIOUR. Lover. LION OF THE TRIBE OF JUDAH. Mighty Man in Battle!
Father, I do not call You these names simply because of how nice they sound, or because I want to show that I know them, and I know their meanings.
I call You these names because that is how You have showed Yourself to me this year. When I call you these names, I do with meaning. Because I know that is who You are, and You have revealed Yourself as such in my life.

Then comes my question. Who am I, O Sovereign Lord, that You have brought me this far?
What have I done, to deserve Your blessings? Your glory? Your favour? Your upliftment? Your Spirit?
You’ve taken me far Daddy. Brought me to places I actually never expected. And You know what else, You’re not done. This is only the beginning. Wow. I’m blown away, My love.

Thank you. All I have to say is thank you.
For my life, Thank you.
For my family, Thank you.
For the amazing friends you sent my way this year, Thank you.
For the wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ you’ve given me, Thank you.
For the members of my Bible study group, Thank you.
For every battle You have lead me through, Thank you.
For every victory You have given me, Thank you.
For every new height You have taken me to, Daddy, Thank you.
For the lives of the people who read my blog, Thank you Daddy.

I love you. I love you feels insufficient to express this feeling I’m feeling. My hearts is overflowing with love for you Jehovah. I love you. I love you. I love you. Onye n’emenma, Dalu so. Imela ❤️❤️

Dear God (Uche)

Dear God,
You know I love you so much right? Last day of 2014 and I’m alive! Hehe, I’m so thankful for everything you’ve done for me in 2014.
Thankful for Your mercy and grace, thankful for preserving and keeping me and my family.
Even though the enemy tried to take You away from me through some tough situations it didn’t succeed, ko poss.
Then you gave me this sweet result, mann Daddy you’re too much! And the fact that I thought my Christmas would be horrible, it was marvelousss. Thank you once again!
Daddy remember the thing I asked you for before the end of 2014, I’m still expecting and even though it’s the last day of 2014, You’d still surprise me. I have faith in you ^^ , no matter what happens though I believe Your will is the best for me. Of course!
Cheers to more and more years together till the end.
I love youuu muahh!

Dear God (Ayo)

Dear God,

We’ve been through a lot you know especially this year… all our break ups, times I wouldn’t even want to talk to you or even times I felt I’d cheated on you. I remember that time I couldn’t even call you because I felt I didn’t deserve Your love; I would cheat on You and yet You would always welcome me with loving hands.
Nah, I felt really bad and I was like you know what, I think we just need a break from each other.
Days, weeks and months passed, our communication rate declined big time 👇👇.
But then again just like You’ve been doing always you found a way of calling me back. This time in a funny way via Twitter 😄😄
You knew my stalking skills were 🙌 , so to me it came as no surprise. I noticed a friend of mine had changed her ways and she took God more serious, so in my little way I just had a little chat with her and they say the rest is history.
She added me into her bible study group and gradually we began to talk more, I even wrote my first letter to you during that period 😁😁.
Long story cut short we got back together and even made our bond stronger 💪💪💪.

Would also like to thank you for all You’ve done for me this year, Your protection, guidance for my family and friends.
Despite all the attempts of our side chick (the devil), we came out victorious 😎.  
Thanks a lot my real G 👏👏

Ayo.

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Dear God (Ezinne)

Dear God,
It’s me again.
Um, I know I haven’t been talking to you a lot recently & that’s why I’m so nervous now but I have a lot to say & you’re the only one I know that’ll completely understand.

When I started this year, I was so sad & afraid. I used to cry a lot, but you know that already, don’t you?
Because I stayed in your presence for hours sometimes begging that my parents stay together but they separated anyway.

You have never ignored my prayers Daddy and that was why I was so confused. I didn’t talk to you for months because I was so angry and hurt and it was a good excuse to sin.

Why my family? It hurt to see my siblings hurt and I suffered. Stepped up, took on so much responsibility, while trying to hide my sadness and problems from the world and also not mess up in school.

But then You still called me. You made events in my life turn around and lead me back to You. And now I finally understand. I’m SO much stronger & braver & wiser. I know what I want & what I don’t. All this time I thought you abandoned me but you were really just toughening me.
Making me into this amazing, beautiful, woman who is now wife material uncountable yards lol because you have great plans for me.
I just love you.
You’re the real mvp lol.
You’re my best friend.
You’re amazing.

All my love forever,
Ezinne.

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